My First BIG Mystical Experience

Today's BIG painting
Big, bold, beautiful

OK, so I've had my very first "mystical experience" with BIG.
Don't know what else to call it.

Oh, I've been listening all along; paintings have been telling me what they've wanted....been doing just fine with all that.
But today's painting....OMG people!

I recalled what Connie had said about this one, and I thought yeah, I can see where this one might kick my a**.

I put on some music. Today's selection--- Raquy and the Cavemen (LIFE-CHANGING music btw; thanks Christine at Bliss Chick. I could listen to Obama Ayub all day long...and dance!)

Painting and dancing, dancing and painting....a whole lotta shakin' goin' on up in my studio this morning!
I painted the pretty flowers...yep 5 years old.
Look at all the bright colors!

Stood back and waited.....listened.
It told me BLACK.
Black for my background.
Uhh...ok. That's maybe more like me at 12, but ok.
But no emotion, nothing unusual.
Some serious hip rotation while I listened for more.
If nothing else is moving, this body sure is!

Red dots.
On the black background.

Ummmm...yeah ok; I'll play along.
And that's when I heard it. LOUD AND CLEAR.

PAY ATTENTION TO THE INTERIOR SPACES. NO ONE PAYS ATTENTION TO THOSE LITTLE INTERIOR SPACES. IT'S YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO LOVE THEM AND FILL THEM UP.

Now THAT was unexpected!
Tears welled up, then rolled freely as I filled up the little interior spaces with red dots.
The metaphor was not lost on me.

I thought I was done. I got still and listened somemore.
Nope.

RED CANDY STRIPES ON THE FLOWER STEMS. NO ONE LOVES THEM AS MUCH AS THEY DO THE FLOWERS

I'd intended to paint all day, but I am spent after that revelation.

I gotta know.....anybody else had such dramatic ..... well....DRAMA while painting???
Especially you girls who've done BIG??
C'mon, 'fess up!
Or am I just crazy?!

What Do We Wish to Dare?

Raquy

From Jamie Ridler--

"You can be a maker of magic and a tender of wishes. It’s easy. Answer the wish prompt. Support wishes by visiting other participants, leaving a comment. It’s that simple. There is great power in wishing together."

Today's Wishcasting Wednesday prompt--
What do you wish to dare?

Wow Jamie!
Do the wish prompts always have to bring up so much stuff?? :D
All the prompts over the last few weeks have brought up lists of wishes, from which I'm never able to pick just one.

Today's is no different.
There is much that I wish to dare. But having been practically an invalid for the past year, and ill for many years, even the small dares are huge to me.
Starting my blog, participating in Wishcasting Wednesday each week, producing my own Halloween art show, sponsoring what promises to be a gigantic community art event/fundraiser, and now being involved in Art Every Day month.... All a big, BIG deal for me!

Tonight, I'll be living a huge dare (for ME).
Tonight I'm going to a concert, probably all by myself (that's how badly I want to go).
Sunday I discovered Raquy and the Cavemen (thanks Christine!) and I re-discovered how great it feels to move my body! Lupus and fibromyalgia keep my body pretty well locked up, so it's been years since I've gotten up and moved like that. I danced around the house all afternoon; I cleaned and danced on Monday, and yesterday...well, yesterday I realized that I didn't feel too bad!

Yesterday I discovered that this group is playing just 20 minutes away, TONIGHT!
Coincidence? I think NOT!

My ticket is in my hand, and I'm ready to go. I may not last for the whole show, but I am so excited to hear this drumming live and witness the beauty of belly dancing, and actually feeling it all in my body. I'm excited to think that this is something that can actually help me to feel well again.

Thank you friends for all your sweet wishes, sending healing my way---they're working!!

AHEM....
I am hereby amending this post.
What I wish to dare really, truly----to be ME, to just be ME.
I think that just might fix everything.....